Thursday, January 7, 2010

Flabby Body as Shell

For those of you who believe the human body is merely a shell to hold our souls: I absolutely agree with you!

However, the back part of shell hurts more lately because of the boobie and belly and back fat roll weight it has to support. And my shell moves more slowly, which is bad when I have kids to save and I need cat-like reflexes. And my shell doesn't need diabetes or further heart issues. My man loves my shell like it is, but I want my shell healthier.

I don't expect my shell, at age 38, to be bikini-ready by June. I'm cool with stretch marks, saggy boobs and cellulite.

But if I don't lose this weight now, menopause will soon slow my metabolism down so freaking fast that I won't have a chance of being even merely comfortable in the years to come. And what if, God forbid, I get pregnant again? What I weigh today is what I should weigh NINE MONTHS PREGNANT. I can't imagine packing on another 25 pounds to this frame as-is.

And yes, I plan to bore the living crap out of you about weight loss. I started at 159, by the way, and am not afraid to share that. I am 5 feet and 2 inches tall. And I am going to lose this weight ... the goal is 129, in case you are interested. And I'm going to do it without Weight Watchers. Or Jenny Craig. Just me counting calories and attempting to move my butt. Do you think I can exercise and breastfeed at the same time? I'm gonna try, dammit.

Help me out here ... share with me your body issues so I know I'm not alone! And please don't tell me I look good for having 5 kids or that I'm still nursing and shouldn't try to drop the weight. I'll sit on you, and you know I will.


  1. I stopped weighing a few years back. I try to eat well and ebbs and flows but for me it's about health...I am 43 and a size 12 at nearly 5ft I'm a tight size 12 and with some behaviour changes in a few weeks I'll be a loose size 12.

    It's about behaviour not calories for me. Body issues...I'm considering a breast reduction..I believe it is the problem with my back...but it's such a huge decision to put my otherwise supremely healthy body through it..I don't do antibiotics well and that's part of it. I may just forget the idea.

    I'm sitting on my exercise ball at my desk and that seems to be helping, so perhaps I don't need surgery!

  2. I'm 167lb and 5'9" and a size 12, XL tops and I want to fit in size 10 and size L tops. This is heavier than I have ever been in my life. And at age 35 and after 4 kids, my body has not rebounded the way it did after the first three kids. Very frustrating for me. It's really the belly/back/boob fat that is killing me this time. Getting rid of the muffin top is my goal. Brian is currently acting as my personal trainer, we will see how well that goes.

  3. You are definitely not alone, I too am struggling. Perhaps I need to work more on acceptance of what God has given me, but at 5'4" and 158# I don't feel healthy. I started WW last year at 165# in Feb and got down to 144# by early summer but then stopped exercising regularly. Ok, ok I stopped exercising at all, and ate what I wanted so guess what the pounds came back. Surprise surprise I know. I'm back to working at it again. Mostly I have to realize that being menopausal with a dreadfully slow metabolism, not exercising is not an option (though I really do not enjoy it at all!) and I really need to come to terms with not being able to eat what I want anymore, well not unless I want to spend the rest of the day on the treadmill working it off! Hang in there, you're not alone!

  4. I'm trying to get a glimpse of what I used to look like back.

    I went from 104 to 151 with Riley and I'm back to 120, but it's a ton of flabby skin...and you can forget about my old jeans.

    I'd be fine staying 120, but I just need to get less flabby.


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